Alright.

I know the blogosphere is for most people (including me) a happy, magical place and I don't believe I'm going to do this to the blogosphere, but I am going to vent a little...and yes I may even be a bit dreary. So prepare yourself. I have been having a series of bad luck lately. A series of unfortunate or less than ideal events, I guess you could call it. I have been searching for a job, for what seems like forever now, and have been unsuccessful. It was harder at first because we didn't know if we'd be around this summer. Employers weren't really all the stoked about employing me if I was only going to be around for a few months. Because of this fact I also wasn't as hard on myself. But now that it's looking like we most likely will be around this summer the fact that I still don't have a job is a little more than disappointing. The worst of the disappointment started when I applied for a job that I REALLY wanted. It was a graphic design job...in Logan...that actually paid well...that I actually was amazingly excited about. But alas, I didn't get it. I did beat out 20 other applicants, which made me feel a little bit cool, but that feeling faded pretty quick. I just got turned down by yet another employer yesterday and it's hard to keep pushing. I mean, there's not a lot of ideal jobs in Logan. I guess I have been a bit picky, I graduate in a few months and I guess I just feel like being a graduate I shouldn't be working a lame-o job. I shouldn't be so picky, I know.
Then today, my car got booted on campus. I only had enough coinage for exactly the time of my class. I left a few minutes early so I could get to my car before the meter ran out. As I got to my car a parking ticket person was just starting to pull out her ticket pad. I ran up to her and asked her if she was about to write me a ticket. She confirmed my fears. I begged her to find it in her heart to let me off, after all, I had gotten there right as she was starting to write, but she refused to stop writing on that hated pad of paper. Oh, and not only would I be getting a meter parking ticket, I would also be getting a boot she heartlessly informed me with no mercy what-so-ever. I paid the fine quickly over the phone before the boot guy even had time to get to my car to put it on, but because of "protocol" I still had to be booted until parking woman received payment confirmation...even though parking woman heard me pay it over the phone. It was a ridiculous waste of everyones time. So boot man put the boot on, girl finally got confirmation and boot man just had to take it off again. Ridiculous.
If any of you have been booted, or even been given a ticket you know what this experience can do to your day. I know we should try to look on the bright side of things, and yes the ticket givers are just doing their job but boy, can it sure ruin a perfectly good day. This was the case with me and my hated booting experience. I had plans to work out, run errands, go job hunting, but now all I wanted to do was rent and watch a bunch of movies, eat bean and bacon soup (my comfort food), eat popcorn and drink a tall refreshing jug of mountain dew. I don't know if this happens to anyone else, but sometimes when things go wrong or I'm having a bad day I just sit and stew about all other "bad" things going on. Bad can even consist of silly small irrelevant things. I even began to think silly things like, "I'm lame", "I'll never get a job that I'll actually love, I'll just work at a restaurant the rest of my life", "Even though I'm working out and eating healthier, I'm not losing a million pounds." (not really a million) Ridiculous thoughts I know. I had to go back up to school to get a text book for one of my classes. In the bookstore I saw a few quotes that for some reason made me feel so much better. Oddly, they gave me that little bit of sunshine that I needed. Its funny that when you think things are over and that you won't be happy ever again (a bit dramatic I know) how something small and simple can cheer you up.

1. H. Jackson Brown Junior 2. Proverb 3. Neale Donald Walsh 4. Uta Hagen

As lame and cheesy as it may be, after reading these quotes and a few others, I was feeling a bit happier. Maybe my life would go on, maybe I was a creative and valuable person an employer would see as an asset. I WILL get a job soon! Yes, everything would be alright. Then as I was walking back to my car a friend I hadn't seen for a while gave me a compliment. Things do get better. This is a fact of life. Its surprising how quickly and deeply a person can plummet into sadness, especially for something that really isn't (in the broader spectrum of things) that horrible. There are people out there who are suffering through things far worse than unemployment and parking tickets. I am lucky. I have a husband who cares about me and my happiness so much. He would do anything to make me feel better when I've had a rough day (like a good ole foot massage). I have great friends who cheer me up (even though they might not realize I need cheering), just by stopping by to say hi and by being their awesome selves. So after a long, emotional day I feel better. My life is a good one. Despite seemingly difficult circumstances, I am grateful for times like these that remind me to appreciate the good and great in my life. Everything will be alright.

I ran across these prints and I want all 3 of them. They would be a great reminder on days like these...